I never thought it is going to be this tough. But now I do. I was enthusiastic about everything. But now I am not. All the stress from meeting job application deadlines, preparing for career fairs and presentations, while still keeping up with homework due dates is starting to have a negative effect on me.
I want to keep myself on top of things, to plan ahead and start early on assignments. But as I'm trying to do so, I realized I'm not a person who performs normally under pressure. What makes things worse is that when I'm stressed, I tend to move further away from what I'm supposed to be doing, and seek "pleasure" instead. *which then creates more stress for me as the deadline comes nearer, which then makes me feel worse, which then makes me want to escape reality again...which.........!!!*
Here's my way of seeking "pleasure": watching anime, movies, sitcoms or dramas, sometimes singing. This weekend, I started watching some old anime again: Chibi Maruko-chan and Fushigi Yuugi for the 4th time *hurray*!
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Few BIG things on my To-Do list:
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3) McKinsey deadline
4) Recruiting presentation + analysis Sep.
5) Loreal Brandstorm Weekend registration Oct. 4
6) 2 midterms on Oct. 6
THERE'S MORE MORE MORE!!! \//> <\\/
argh, how i wish i had your kind and your kind of stress to deal with only. =( at least there is something i can do about it.
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i wouldn't say it stresses me out infinitely. but it does add on to my melancholy. need a bunch of sweet stuff after that. heh. who can blame my lack of a decent diet! =p